Friday, April 17, 2015

Cold Attack

So I am sick. Nothing big, just a cold. But I think we all know that hopeless feeling of being unable to do things. The crippling tiredness that comes over you, where every part of your body stops wanting to do things.

It's not fun, but hey, it's life. A year ago when I was sick it got pretty bad. It was after a week long trip in Virginia. I come home with the worst fever I have ever had. That was one of those times I asked myself, "Is this the end? Am I really dying this way?" Please tell me someone else has thought that when they were sick. Otherwise I must just be seriously dramatic. :-)

Anyway, when I am sick I tend to completely go into consume mode. Which means here comes Youtube, Netflix, old novels, and Spotify streaming all day long. I am currently rereading the Circle series. I can never get enough of those books. Watching Rhett and Link on Youtube. Going through old Disney movies. Listening to the new Cinderella movie soundtrack, which is superb. favorite track is, La Valse de L'Amour. So gorgeous. 

Besides sleeping, what do you do when you are sick? 


Monday, April 6, 2015

My Single Success at Cooking

So, I am the worst cook ever. The most I can do is freezer food, and I am dead serious. I have always been awful, and pretty much wreck anything I cook. Both my sisters are fantastic at it, so I don't see that great of a need for me to be doing it right now, right?

Well, when my sisters and mom aren't home, my mom asks me to make dinner. I am stunned and horrified, especially since we are going to have company that night.

So with a big step of faith I head to Pinterest. After hunting around for a recipe we have the ingredients for, I begin the process of making it. Chicken pot pie soup, sounds good enough.

Half way through I realize we are out of potatoes. Great. So I simply don't include them and do extra veggies, hoping for the best. Then I find out we don't have another thing. I kept improvising, just begging for it to work. By the time I finished, it did in fact taste awesome!

So to top it off, I pulled out the canned biscuits we had. With a fine Karate chop, I opened each can. After the biscuits were finished, I proudly served it to my family. 

Everyone loved it, even the guests, it was a score. 
But then, my brother goes, "So, it's gluten free, Abigail can have it?"
I turned pale as I watch her finish up her bowl. "I used flour in it!" 

We had to just hope for the best, and thankfully she wasn't effected to poorly by my mistake. 

So, there you have it, my cooking success. Well, besides a few slip ups. I guess I can cook. But just not always amazing. 


Saturday, April 4, 2015

He is Risen

How one's life can change in a year. 

I don't know where to begin. I have learned an incredible amount in a year. Resurrection Sunday of 2014, I didn't even know if I believed in Christ anymore. I had thought I loved and trusted Him. But, I was so hurt and lost, I wasn't so sure anymore. I felt such a great storm in my heart. I was angry, but afraid. 

I learned a valuable lesson this year, trust in Jesus. 

Having to come to the reality that I didn't trust Him, was one of the most painful moments of my life. I was holding back. I was afraid. 

This Resurrection Sunday, and unbelievable joy has overwhelmed my heart. I feel such a deep peace and comfort in Jesus. I love Him, and coming to grips of the idea that He suffered for me, is life changing. 

I had heard all the right words. I had heard the message a thousand times. But coming to grips with it all, and truly feeling the impact of Christ's sacrifice, took me a while. I didn't really believe He could love me that much. Why would He die for me? I was a small person on this large planet, falling into sin so easily. Forgetting his sacrifice. Why would he ever die for me? 

He loved me. He, the maker of the universe, loved me! 

This realization fully sank into me, and I felt the weight of my fears fall away. I could lean on Him! He would take my burden's and I didn't have to be afraid or hold anything back. I could put my trust in Jesus. 

This Resurrection Sunday, I look forward to celebrating with a full heart. Having peace and joy pour forth from me as I celebrate the love my Savior has for me. 

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, 
and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

TeenPact in Tallahassee Florida

So, I mentioned I went on a trip in my last blog post. Now it's time for me to explain everything about that, in great detail! Ok, maybe not GREAT detail, I don't want to bore anyone, but I will share a little bit about it.

So, this was officially the first road trip I have ever taken with my best friend Lauren. We were both signed up for the event TeenPact, in Tallahassee, Florida. This event teaches you how government works and how important it is to pray for those in office.

And so, the time came for us to leave on our crazy long road trip. 
We were both very hyper and excited to start.

 Oh, and things are always better with Starbucks.

So after the long trip there, we finally made it! We stayed in a camp close to the capitol building where we would have the classes. Our first day we headed to the capitol to sign up.

It is such a large capitol building, it was so much fun to get to completely explore it going through all the elaborate staircases and elevators. We had the chance to head to the top, it felt like you could see the whole state! 

We were grouped into committees for the week, each group would do activities together and act as a mock house of representatives. I was elected as clerk, which meant I was in charge of reading mock bills that other students had written, to our group. Me and Lauren were in the same group by chance, which made us both very happy. 
And why not a silly picture as we are all dressed in professional attire? 

Here is a picture of all the girls in our group. We were at the top of the capitol building in front of the large windows looking out. I wished you could have seen outside, but the sun sort of ruined that. :-)

So after each of our groups worked through bills like the house does, we brought them to TeenPact Legislature. that was tons of fun, especially when you get to do it in the Florida House of Representatives! My parents managed to get a pic of us doing it in the Governor's court room, here.
That was fun, but still not nearly as fun as doing it in the House of Representatives!

By the end of the week I had learned so much knowledge not only about politics, but also about relationships. Looking forward to expounding on that in later posts!

Then came the long trip back home.
We were both so exhausted, but giddy, so we never actually managed to sleep even though I was insanely tired.

And so closed the week. An awesome amazing experience that I will  never forget! It was awesome and amazing. Just one last note before I leave- never push the weight limit on an elevator. 


Monday, March 30, 2015

Trust People?

I struggle with trust. Yes, trust issues over here. The hardest thing is that I analysis my life to figure out why, and I can't seem to find a good enough reason for them. But here I am, always in fear of being let down by people. Always holding them at a distant, afraid of who will turn their back on me. 

I learned a valuable lesson this week. Stepping out in faith. Trusting people. 

Meeting new people has never been an easy thing for me. I went on a trip this week for a convention, and my whole family hoped I would make some friends. I secretly doubted I would. Few people who meet me ever stay and want to be my friend. So, I was already setting myself up for not getting to know anyone. I was afraid. 

The week opens up, I introduce myself to many girls, hoping to stay shallow and not grow close to anyone. I didn't want friends, I was done being failed. At the convention they split all of us up into groups for the evening. Me along with seven other girls huddled on the floor with our group leaders to have some deep meaningful conversations. immediately my sirens start blaring in my head. Deep conversations would lead to me having to trust them, put faith in these girls. I would be expected to share my heart with them. 

I sent up silent prayers to God, "Lord, you know I feel like I can't do this. So, you're going to have to take this. I give up. Have it all. Here I go." Taking a deep breath, I did it. I opened up. I stopped holding back. I shared my heart, putting trust in these girls to care about me and want to help me. 

Guess what? They did care. Their hearts were soft and longing to care for me. They wanted to help me, they wanted to pray for me. I wanted to melt. These girls cared. I had let go and found peace in Christ, giving over my anxious fears.

Am I saying we should trust everyone? Of course not, but we can't hold back all our trust. Life requires us to trust people. For those of us who have been burned for putting trust in others, we wish their was some way we could get by in life never trusting. 

Trusting people can some times feel like walking off the roof of a skyscraper. But guess what? That's why Jesus is by our side. We can rest out trust in Him to protect us, as we step out in wild faith. He is there for us. 


Do struggle with trust?