With the new school year, I began to consider what I want to delve into in regards to future education. I was starting to get stressed about that as well, my future, college, career, life, all of it. What was I going to do with my life?
Life is so precious, it was a free gift given to me, I didn't want to waste it. So I started to panic as I feared I would waste the talents and abilities I was given.
I seemed to have forgotten that I don't control my life.
As I panicked I began to beg God to make sense of it all. I must have seemed awfully silly, begging for His help as I clutched my future to my chest, refusing to hand it over to Him. That's when it clicked. How could someone like me make sense of it all? I am a simple girl, trying to figure out God's plan on my own. So I laid it down. I took a deep breath and surrendered it all.
I gave my future to God. I am willing to lay aside my dreams, to live the life He planned for me.
It seemed like such a horrifying thought. Give up all my dreams? All my plans? All my hopes? But I forgot, God knows those dreams, those plans, those hopes. He knows my hearts desire. If my desires's are not His, I don't want them. I want my desires to be Christ's desires.
So I have surrendered. I am living my life day by day. Allowing Christ to plan my future, allowing Him to plant the desires I need in my heart.